The Peace Awareness Training (PAT) is a facelift I give myself once a year. It is a divinely designed portal that plugs me into my inner space — where my Soul is activated and I am invited to participate in designing a beautiful life. It tickles me to get a glimpse.

There is this rich sense of getting free from old patterns, illusions and judgments that recycle themselves over and over again like karma gone mad with desire or something not that fun.

As I let go more, it was a challenge to see God with fewer illusions to distract me — observing what loving is, not what I made it out to be.

Being with God was like remembering all the parts of me that I’d sent away and now they had returned to be with me and I received the opportunity to love them as God loves me.

When I truly let God in there is a childlike innocence and wonder that emerges from underneath all the junk I’ve collected through the years. A laugh usually breaks free and it cleans up any lingering debris I couldn’t get to otherwise.

I enjoyed cuddling with God almost every day, listening to the sound of his voice and occasionally drinking a coconut green matcha tea.
Every year is different at the PAT training. This year I cried often, which helped my face lift & soften.

I found that as the days passed, my eyes became brighter, my energy lighter, my words more honest and my heart more courageous in staying open in sharing who I am.

One morning toward the end of the training, I was washing my face and brushing my teeth when I glanced up to find light in my eyes. I smiled because it is always sweet to find love looking through me.

Today there still remains this soft space inside that is reminiscent of a place I know, in my heart, where I imagine God loves me often.