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Being With John-Roger | Notes From An Unbeliever

In my first exposure to J-R I was at a point in my life questioning the value of my personal and professional experi-ences. I felt like a puppet going through the motions but missing the juice. I had lost any sense of belief in marriage, writing/directing TV, drugs and meaningless sex.

And so… I was an unbelieving judgmental dude when J-R spe-cifically said, “Don’t believe me, check it out.”

Okay…he said do two hours of s.e.’s every day. Whew…I had to go into training like a long distance runner…until I finally earned the daily two hours.

Okay…he said be active in service. Piece of cake as what others may call service I have always created opportunities to give, to share, to teach, to direct others who were wanting.

During all the years, the decades, I continued to “check it out.” Working in TV, sexuating, marrying, divorcing, always being of service before and after being on MSIA staff…I still do not believe. But I do experience the gift of Spirit.

I have always continued to do s.e.’s, not because of shoulds but because the experience literally connects me with home.

I have been with J-R on the physical level many times in many countries, profound to prosaic. BUT … there’s that big BUT again…I was and am with J-R every day during s.e’s, long walks and just breathing in and out.

J-R left the planet.

For some that is a significant loss.

Frankly, for me, he has never left.