A full day of PAT (Peace Awareness Training) processes, spiritual exercises and sharings with John. And a special treat in the evening\u2014a ministers\u2019 meeting broadcast live from our retreat center in Israel, an MSIA first. For days we\u2019ve been struggling with the internet connection here, and how NOW Productions pulled this off (they\u2019re the audio-visual-tech department of MSIA) seems like a miracle.<\/p>\n
I don\u2019t have much to say, as my body, mind and emotions are preoccupied with the healing bliss of the energy that\u2019s stirred and shaken into existence by 100 people drinking in the Spirit together. I\u2019m looking through the wrong end of the binoculars, and the external world, and any kind of concern about it, or desire to alter it, or interpret, question, inhabit, touch, play with, judge, or nudge it even a millimeter, or enter into its drudgery, seem about as appealing as jumping into a vat of dog fudge.<\/p>\n
Luckily they let me try to express what I\u2019m feeling inside by playing music and J-R excerpts at these things, otherwise I\u2019d be flat out on the floor rolling around in some kind of ecstasy. Or maybe it\u2019s not so lucky, maybe it\u2019s God\u2019s way of keeping me in my body. He\u2019s my love but he\u2019s such a tease\u2014more so than any woman could ever be. Always giving me a glimpse and then pulling away. Or maybe, since J-R says if you don\u2019t feel close to God guess who moved, I\u2019m the tease.<\/p>\n
There are a few photos taken through the wrong end of the binoculars. Good luck trying to get any kind of sense through them of what\u2019s really going on here.<\/p>\n