This article was first published in the New Day Herald March of 2015<\/em><\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n Part of my journey home to the heart of God has included the DSS program and writing the practical treatise (PT) as vehicles to help me awaken. Besides saying \u201cYes\u201d to the Traveler, they were the best decisions I ever made. The title of my PT was \u201cOn the Road to My Divinity\u201d, and my hypothesis was:<\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n The methods I used were very simple:<\/p>\n Loving all parts of me, letting go of judgment through self forgiveness, realigning with the Light. This is my way Home to God. How wonderfully simple, and how excruciatingly difficult it can be for me to maintain\u2014to hold in the Light and the Loving each day. But, that is my commitment to myself and God.<\/p>\n One of my favorite books is called Women Who Run With the Wolves<\/em>, by Clarissa Pinkola Estes. It had a tremendous impact on my life and my inner search. In one part, she talks about La Loba, the Wolf Woman, who collects the bones of the wolf and sings and prays over it in order to bring it to life as the Wild Woman, connected to her Soul.<\/p>\n My DSS journey, and writing my PT, has been my own process of \u201ccollecting the bones.\u201d During this time, I brought forward all those lost and buried parts of me and lovingly placed them into the Light. It has been a process of going deep within my psyche to uncover what I had hidden out of shame or ignorance and loving it into life. I no longer feel uncertain, unknowing, two-dimensional. I have a rich, full inner experience of loving, of the God within me and around me, and of myself as soul. And, yet, I know I am just beginning.<\/p>\n The following came forward as I was preparing for a presentation at the beginning of Year 3 of DSS, and became part of my PT.<\/p>\n On the Road to My Divinity<\/p>\n I shall be telling this with a sigh I know this journey is not really a road. It\u2019s a place I already am, just not fully awakened to yet. But it feels like a road or a path to me. My road to my Divinity takes many forms. Sometimes it\u2019s like a lane on a farm where the ruts are so deep it\u2019s difficult to change course. Other times it\u2019s a very scenic highway that is so amazing it can take my breath away. Some days it\u2019s like driving through the lower 9th ward in New Orleans, where all I can do when I look at the decay and broken lives is let go of the helplessness and trust that God is there. My favorite road is the expressway\u2026 flying like the wind with the windows down and the music cranked up and the feeling of exhilaration making it hard to stay in my body. My Soul\u2019s Journey has many roads to choose from. Many roads taking me Home.<\/p>\n As I have continued on this journey, a new road has presented itself. A road less traveled that I don\u2019t know as well. All the familiar reference points aren\u2019t there. There are no places to pull over when the storms come so I can feel safe in the way I used to. The road behind me is rolling up and disappearing and I can\u2019t see the road in front of me. I just have to stay in the moment, breathing in and breathing out, trusting that the fog will lift and that I will eventually know where I am going. This road asks me to trust. To put aside all illusions about what I thought was true and open up to the Truth of who I am. Because I can\u2019t see any signs, I have to go inside for answers. And I am being guided through the narrow gate.<\/p>\n Along this road I had an awakening. I heard a voice softly whisper, \u201cremember\u2026remember.\u201d All the times before, I thought this was the voice of loneliness telling me there was something wrong with me or something lacking in my life. I hear now the voice of my Soul, that part of me which remembers the sacred communion saying, \u201cRemember you are more than this. You are Divine.\u201d<\/p>\n On the road to my Divinity I discovered that even though I drive away, I never leave home. It\u2019s always within me, never separate. There is no here nor there, then and now, them and us. It\u2019s all one. Right now. One thought. One breath. One cell of God.<\/p>\n I see how I am getting exactly what I need along the way. It\u2019s not always what I want. It\u2019s often not very pretty. The times I am in need of grace, it is there. When I need love, it shows up. And when I think I am in charge, I am humbled. I see all the teachers that have been in my life. Some I recognized at the time. Others I recognize now. Through their sandpapering, through their reflections of me in them I have grown. Despite my best efforts to stay the same. I am in gratitude and loving for these people along the way. Some are still with me. Others are with me only in my heart. Many are still to come. I thank you all.<\/p>\n I am embracing my limitations, understanding my motivations and seeing the times I\u2019m not so pure of heart. I am letting go of the need to defend or justify and now can simply say, \u201cYes, this is me.\u201d Or, \u201cYes, I did that.\u201d And doing this I find that I am doubting less and trusting more. All the while my Soul is saying, \u201cRemember.. Remember you are safe to be who you are.\u201d<\/p>\n I see how often I have let doubt and discouragement be my guide and keep me small. I see the times that fear was in control and I stayed silent. I have become aware of the times when the victim in me would rob me of my power, or when I simply gave it away to another. And all the while my Soul is saying\u2026 \u201cRemember\u2026 Remember you\u2019re a lion, not a lamb.\u201d<\/p>\n I am embracing all those lost and disenfranchised parts of me that had been left behind, those orphans who have gone unclaimed due to my confusion and ignorance. One by one they are detaching themselves from the past, from those situations where they were stuck in shock or fear or rage, or simply because they thought that\u2019s where they belonged. One by one they are returning to the Light, to the Loving, some running with arms out, others returning a bit grudgingly asking, \u201cWhere the hell have you been?\u201d But, one by one they are returning. I am becoming real and much loved\u2026 like in the book The Velveteen Rabbit. I am opening my heart to myself, sacrificing my arrogance and reclaiming my innocence. And in doing that, I am becoming more of me, and less about me.<\/p>\n I see my life as my sacred creation. No more excuses, no more blaming or judgment. I am releasing it all so I can be free. Free to be who I Am. Trusting that I am guided each step of the way.<\/p>\n And all the while my Soul is saying\u2026 \u201cRemember\u2026Remember.\u201d<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" This article was first published in the New Day Herald March of 2015 I am opening my heart to myself, sacrificing my arrogance and reclaiming my innocence. And in doing that, I am becoming more of me, and less about me. 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And in doing that, I am becoming more of me, and less about me.<\/h5>\n
If I am devoted to loving and letting go, then I will experience living in Soul Awareness.<\/h5>\n
\nSomewhere ages and ages hence:
\nTwo roads diverged in a wood, and I –
\nI took the one less traveled by,
\nAnd that has made all the difference.
\n– Robert Frost<\/p><\/blockquote>\n