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My Story as a Student of the Traveler

 

I was living in Colombia when I was invited to hear John-Roger speak. It was in 1985, I was 26 years old. I don’t remember much of what J-R talked about, but soon after I took my first Insight training and heard about MSIA Discourses.

Taking Insight was a door that opened a whole new world I didn’t know existed; it was my call to continue learning and growing personally. Soon after my first Insight training, I found out that the people involved with Insight were students of the Traveler. I felt I had found very special people; they were the ones that talked to me about getting the Discourses. I was hesitant at first as I had not been consciously seeking for anything different that what I already knew. I had been raised Catholic, and didn’t know anything about other religions much less about other spiritual paths. I had wanted to feel close to Jesus since I was a little girl, but the Catholic faith had not offered ways to have a closer relationship with Jesus or God. I got my Discourses, and only got fully involved until the next MSIA Staff visit to Colombia a year later.

The MSIA guiding principles that have been of great value to me are: “You are not given anything you can’t handle” and “God loves all of Its creation.” Whenever I feel that the challenge is too big, get discouraged or feel hopeless, I remind myself of, “I am not given anything I can’t handle” and find renewed strength and inspiration to manage the situation, to learn from it, to overcome it. Whenever I find myself not understanding, or judging any person or situation, I remind myself of the loving. My ability to have greater understanding and to love people and situations increase exponentially when I remind myself that God loves all of it.

I remember towards the beginning of my marriage being confronted about conditionings and beliefs I had acquired throughout my life. What I believed to be a marriage crisis was actually me experiencing my fantasy world collapsing. The rug had been pulled from under my feet and it felt as if I had been left with no foundation to stand on. It was a very scary place to be, and the only thing I was able to hold on to was the Traveler’s teachings. Once I realized that what I had believed and conditioned myself for years was no more, I took the opportunity to more devotedly study and practice the MSIA teachings and set off to build a foundation that has supported me in finding my True Self, and reconnecting to my heart and Soul.

This and other challenging life situations have been stepping stones when practicing what J-R taught us: to use everything to uplift ourselves, learn and grow. I’ve found it to be a wondrous healing adventure that continues to take me closer to God. J-R always said, “don’t believe what I am telling you, check it out for yourself and see if it works for you.” I have experienced time and time again that J-R’s teachings are real, and they work. I can’t even begin to imagine where I would be in my life if I did not have this path to be on, to support myself, to keep myself on track, to expand in my loving.

I had the incredible blessing of meeting John-Roger physically. My experience of J-R over the years was of a human being that was very honest, straight forward, and always loving. J-R wouldn’t say what people wanted him to say, but what we needed to hear to move forward, to go beyond our limited perceptions and get closer to God in our hearts. My experience of J-R still is of his everlasting message and demonstration of loving, by example. He not only delivered the message to love it all, but demonstrated how to do it over and over and over again.

J-R explained in so many different ways God’s love, how God knows what He is doing, and that no matter how I am or what I have done, do or don’t do, God loves me because I am. This merciful God I now know because of the Traveler’s guidance and teachings. I now relate to God in a more personal way. He is now reachable. I am not going to be punished and sent to hell for my sins, no. My mistakes are opportunities for me to learn very specific lessons that are very much on purpose for me. My heart is so much bigger and able to access the loving when I remember to ask myself: how can I love this?

The teachings have greatly helped me to more effectively deal with challenging situations in life by looking at things from a higher perspective so that I can see the forest, rather than feeling blocked and/or overwhelmed by the tree in front of me. The greatest challenge (and blessing) was during the first 10 years of motherhood. Raising Max — my son who was born with Downs Syndrome — required for me to step up and overcome more than I could ever imagine I was capable of, and it is by using the teachings as guidance and support that I was able to manage, to keep going no matter, and know that God is my partner through it all.

My favorite story took place when I was taking the Insight Super II training. I shared my wish to be the best mom I could be, and in referring to Max I asked J-R, “Do you want to see his picture?” J-R’s answer was, “I can see him through your eyes and that’s better than any picture, and your job is to show him that he is loved no matter.” In that moment I knew J-R knew of my immense love for Max, and I knew for myself that all I needed to do was to make sure Max knew I loved him no matter. J-R’s response was not just words, it was an experience of knowing, an anchoring of the loving in my heart, a reassurance that I had all that was needed to be the best mom I could be.

Through the years I’ve found incredible inner strength and have grown in my acceptance and loving beyond my wildest dreams, not only for Max but for myself and others, all because of putting the Traveler’s teachings to use and following J-R’s example of loving. If I were to put into words what being a student of the Traveler means to me, it would be to know that I am not alone facing the challenges and lessons life brings to me, that God is always with me and I am loved no matter.

I am forever grateful for J-R, for MSIA, for being a student of the Traveler, a minister of God, an initiate of the Sound Current. I am truly blessed.

2 thoughts on “My Story as a Student of the Traveler”

  1. Theresa Hocking

    A touching story about Max and J-R and loving, a reference point for me. And still you do a lot of service for the highest good of so many of us, in addition to demonstrating your love for Max. Thank you.

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