“We can have pain in the flesh and joy in the Spirit concomitantly. At times we’ll wonder how we can feel so alienated from God and feel so joyful in the presence of the Spirit. While the egoic process may be separating us, the spiritual process is always unifying us.” – John-Roger
This article by John-Roger was first published in the Movement Newspaper, February 1985
One of the greatest dangers we encounter when approaching the spiritual life is seeking for recognition. The whole area of attempting to be recognized by other people is difficult to live in, because we all have our own idea of what that is. Inside of us we resent anybody who has an authority over us. That may be to our advantage. We should seek to be our own spiritual authority and rely on that truth to unfold our divine nature; but the process of doing that can seem to be an ego trip. If we approach the truth in terms of “me,” it becomes a forced separation from the collective unity of God. We then identify the ego as our process of growth. We desire people to recognize our accomplishments, which only reinforces the ego-light.
If we do become egoistic we use the Light energy, that has been residual within our Soul, to glorify our own personage. That’s a fast way into darkness, because the part that you’re glorifying is the ego process inside of you. It continually demands for attention and recognition.
We can give ourselves respect, support and love; but idolatry is the process of failing. If we fall into that, soon we begin selling relics of our beingness to other people and leading them down the path to destruction. Often we’re not sure if we’re coming or going on that path, because the pain is apparent in both directions. We need a comfortable society wherein we can have the confidence to grow beyond the negativity within us.
We can have pain in the flesh and joy in the Spirit concomitantly. At times we’ll wonder how we can feel so alienated from God and feel so joyful in the presence of the Spirit. While the egoic process may be separating us, the spiritual process is always unifying us. The separation we feel is the spirit of error (wrong doing). We realize that the error comes from inside of us and that it is not caused by the world. We recognize it from an individual reference point.
We’re all attempting to run away from hurt, but we also know that pain is an awakening process. However, pain is locked in time. When we awaken our consciousness and we experience the nowness, the pain disappears. We no longer look down the corridors of time searching for our future. Instead we begin living in the eternity of the moment and we have no concern about the future, nor in attempting to reclaim the past. Freedom is the eternal nowness of all things. As we expand ourselves into God, we move beyond the past, the present and the future, and we encompass all existence.
When the spirit of truth reveals itself to us, almost 100 percent of the time it will first reveal our errors. It will indict us and point the finger of truth at us. At that moment we have a cumulative reference point for our lives. We are living on the pinnacle, the fulcrum of our existence. This is why we say, “Make a wise choice,” because you’re going to be held responsible.
For some people the ego consciousness means the divine consciousness. They assume that when I say egoic consciousness, I mean divine. They’ve defined the ego in their special way, as I define it my way. The ego is the liar. It says, “You’ve meditated for 15 minutes. You should feel good now, go ahead and have your pleasure.” It sways us away from the Spirit and attempts to lead us into the world seeking emotional fulfillment.
Our emotions are viable and they are committed to us, as we are committed to them. We enter into the world and attempt to form an emotional relationship with a person, a group or some movement, or philosophy. We can do that if we’ve maintained a center of awareness inside of ourself which knows our level of commitment and what that commitment represents without rationalizations, or excuses.
We can search for ourselves in despair, in separation, or through inharmonious situations. But the moment we discover that Spirit is there, we become sufficient. We are then able to search in calmness, without defenses, without attacking, only observing the situation. Then we can enter into awareness.